…in the aftermath of grief (does it ever really end?). I often find myself looking blankly for indeterminate lengths of time, thinking about things that are no longer relevant- just for the pleasure of the memory, and trying very hard to not be a drag… but honestly, I feel pretty okay. Just more sad than usual. And that’s temporary, too.
Wisdom is knowing I am nothing,
Love is knowing I am everything,
And in between the two
my life moves.
Things are slowly normalizing for me. I’ve stopped looking for Sars’ oxygen hose in the hallway- sleeping without the familiar sound of the oxygen machine outside my bedroom door, etc. Today I’m going to start thank you notes and finalize the headstone….
Thank you for all the messages of love and support. I’m very grateful for all of you.
I hope to get back to a regular writing schedule soon, but will post when I can. Till next time, here’s a pic of me and Ken before the funeral…
With all the funeral stuff, I forgot to clue you in on the test results from last week: nothing. Everything back to normal. So either the prayers were powerful, God changed His/Her mind, or my stress reduced dramatically enough to slow down white cell production. we’ll check again in June.
Thanks for all the well-wishes and support~really appreciated.